REGARDLESS

I think too much; ask too many questions, only to be answered by my incapable human mind. Sometimes I think about stupid things that really don't matter and shouldn't be worried about, and then other times I dive into the deep, raw, true and hard stuff life decides to chuck at me. I think about what my aspirations are and what my future might look like, and a lot of the time I'm scared that it's not the things the Lord wants me to be pursuing. I'm always timid about God's plan for me. It's not that I don't want to obey his will, that's the whole point of my existence and my only desire in this world is to carry out His will, but it scares me that I may fail. These are the things that make me shiver.

These things may make you shiver in fear as well, and maybe that's a good thing; the fact that you're scared that you are doing what God wants you to do. I've really been thinking about things like this. Frequently. Thankfully, the Lord has told me what I've needed to hear. He has revealed to me that what I'm doing now, just sitting here typing this to you, is part of His giant, perplex, complicated plan that only He knows. I am here for a reason and even though I feel like my reason isn't anything important, it is. The Lord has told me to seek him and be patient. Wait and have peace. Our timing isn't His, and that is something really hard to grasp, at least for me it is. His plan for you and me is in his will. We have a purpose here in this world, we just don't know what it is, we may never know what it is, but find comfort in that. If we knew our futures, we might not want to face them, but because of the freedom we have in Christ, we don't have to face them alone. We are going to mess up,   we will fail Him, we are going to sin, we are going to make mistakes, we are going to be confused, and we are going to have no idea what we should do in some situations, but the great thing about this is that He loves us regardless. We're sad, silly little humans that are immensely loved by the Creator of the Universe.

Right now, you're reading this, and guess what? This was already part of His plan for you, as little and insignificant as it may seem. Everything that is going to come your way, every mistake you make, every word you speak has already been thought of. Find comfort in that, you can never take the Lord off guard, he is steadfast and grounded and ready to lift you up the moment you're knocked down, we're just usually just too unaware to notice the healing hand of the Lord in our lives. Our satisfaction does not come from this world, or from other people, it comes from the love the Lord has bestowed upon us and filled us with. Be all in for the Lord. Seek him. Know him.

With Love, Sarah.